it has been a very long time since i last posted on here, but I feel the need to come back "home" and get some much needed help from freinds and "family:".

I have been having small chest pains daily, and they get more painful if I do not take my full zanax (sp) the other day I had a very bad attack and I got angry, and started yelling and could not breath, and I felt warm all over and I just did not feel "right" you could say. somehting inside of me felt like it snapped. I also felt like I was outside of my body, looking down on me while I was doing this, I was crying and screaming at others and I do not do this.. my chest felt like it was going to explode into a million pieces, and i felt like I was worthless to all around me.

What happend to my normall panic attacks??????????
I can handle those a whole lot better those just feel like my chest is going to break apart with the pain of the intense heart stopping stuff.. or is that normall also???????

AM I having something differnt each time and not fully understanding my panic attacks? or what??????