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You are so not alone. When these thoughts creep up on me it takes it's toll. Very hard to deal with. Then, somehow, some strength from with in me takes over and will not accept the negativity. I hold on to what ever hope I can. Just to make it through. Try to counter act those negative thoughts with positive ones. Please know that your not alone.