You all were so helpful in my process of gender self-discovery and coming to terms with that, that I am hoping you can pull of the next miracle: a new job.

I have mentioned breifly that I have a horrible job that many would die for. I am a computer system adminstrator that sits 8 1/2 hours every day waiting for something to happen. Anything. But mostly just watch the clock turn. It may be very similar to a prisoner's day.

My past two jobs have been like this, more or less. The present one started off with a bang about 6 years ago and was very busy and exciting for about 2 years. The work load gradually tapered off to nearly nothing. They only keep me on because they need a system baby sitter, just in case. I stay on because it pays obscenely well for a job where I spend most of my day browsing internet and playing computer games.

You might ask "why don't you find something good to do with your time?" Good question. I have done that. In the last 10 years, mostly on work time, I started and nearly finished nursing school, taught myself flute and fiddle, read countless novels, learned a great deal about personal and business computers and networks, started/ran/closed a web retail business. I am truly sick of busy work and want an actual job that keeps me busy.

I have applied to quite a few businesses locally. It is a dismal outlook. The state I am in, Oregon, has the highest unemployment in the country.

What does this have to do with you all here? Depression is what. I am getting pretty bleak minded lately. It is not helped by the recent turn of weather to cool and cloudy and that is going to get quite a lot worse soon.

Thank you for listening. I am going get re-engaged with you all and see what happens. It was a good outcome before, I hope it will be a good one this time too.

Wherever you go, there you are