I want to encourage and let you know that yes it is progress. You recognized it and did something about it. Great job...i don't know you, but i am proud of you for just the little things you have already talked about doing: You saw that you needed help, you didn't give up and made an appointment despite the time, and in your waiting you came here and shared your hurt. AWESOME... and so you you know, just knowing that much has made me smile, thank you. If that is not progress, they need to rewrite the books... stay golden always