June, thanks for being so supportive. Sorry your life has been giving you a lot of downs, lately, but it's wonderful that it's looking up. I guess there is some promise in these things. Since I wrote it, more people guessed I was younger. One guy who was older than me, but by no means old (middle aged, I would say, is what he was) told me I was too young to have a boyfriend. When he found out I was 26, he said well maybe I should find one then. So, apparently he thought I was younger. I think he was the one that also told me yesterday (same day) that I certainly didn't look my age. It's nice to hear that cause I always worry I look old, much older than I am. I feel I age quickly. Anyway, that comment was nice. Also, I got a photo of my grandma from when she was 18. That makes me happy. I also had a lady tell me my mother and I were like family to her.
On the downside this has happened since my post:
1. Some woman got rude with me at work. Some customer. Sadly, I don't recall her face, but hopefully I will when I see her again, so I can remember, she always dines in PLEASE, because she will prob. die if I accidentally forget that in the future. I am seriously wanting to make one of those covert slights, where I'm trying to be rude....and you can't tell for sure if I meant to be or not. I usually hate those, but I'm not allowed to be directly rude at work. I feel like saying something like, "Oh, yes, I remember you- you always dine in. I'm sorry it took me a little while to remember that. I'm just so used to most of our repeat customers wanting it to go- they're all so busy. Always some place to go- going to work, picking up kids, running home to husbands, shopping with friends, have to get to ballgames, rehearsals, recitals, practice, movies. Need to get back to their gardens. They never have much time to sit still. I guess it must be nice, having such full lives. But at least we have the advantage of rest. How stressful to always be on the go."
2. Then when I went to pay the ticket- well, I called Thursday. They said I had to be in before 5 to see the police chief to get it off my record. I couldn't make it in time, so I said I'd come yestersay, instead. I told them I was gonna pay my ticket. I said this on Thurs. Well, I said one ticket, or indicated I'd pay one. No one said, well come in before 5 to pay the ticket, but up to 5 to have one removed. They just said I needed to be there by 5. Next day said he'd be there till 5. I came a bit after 4:30 maybe 4:40 something when I arrived. I dunno. Anyway, he was gone. Cop says come in, anyway, maybe we can call him. I go in, get a diff. cop, apparently who tells me just take the tickets to city hall when I go. Also, he informs me they are closed, and I can't pay my ticket that day. I wasn't aware- yes, I know this is ignorant- that I couldn't pay the cops. I thought, as long as it was before I had to go to court, I could leave my payment with those who fined me. Obviously, never had a parking ticket before. So, I couldn't pay, and it was my 72 hour of "safe" time. Now, I may have to go to court.
3. This happened before the first post, but I dunno if I mentioned, I have an ear infection. Fluid in it or something. Could be worse, but I don't like it.
4. Just a little thing, but due to working in water so much- cleaning dishes, cleaning off surfaces with wet rags (and I have to put my hands in the disinfectant or soap water to get them out), and washing my hands repeatedly- my skin is a bit dry and older looking on the hands, and my right pointer finger nail has broken off so badly (this stuff destroys the nails) that it is basically right up to the quick.
5. Wedding shower today. I want to be there, but.....kind of makes me fell bad.
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