I am sad and lonely most of the time. I rarely feel happy unless I have bought something.

I have lost the ability to cry on the outside so that people can see that I am sad or in pain. I only ever cry on the inside to the point that I am trembling and my thoughts are racing.

I have no mental health profs. to talk to at the moment. And no close friends that I would feel comfortable opening up to. I fear being abandoned if I were to share my thoughts and feelings. I have no family since both of my parents have passed on and my brother wants nothing to do with me at all.

I feel very alone and sad. Even when I am around people ... say at the grocery store or where ever..... I feel totally alone like I am the only person left in this world.

I have to depend on myself to comfort when I am sad or feeling lonely. I dream of the day were I will have people that can stand beside me and comfort me ... and not run away.