I understand that yearning. I have been hoping and praying that I could have a closer relationship with my mother, and rest of family. But not all wishes come true. I have been wanting this to happen for fifty years and so far we are not as close as I would have liked. But good friend's can be there for you, as support and a helping hand when needed. I wish you all the best and if your wish does not come true then try to enjoy the little things, the little moments with her. And come here for support and new friends who care about you. 1Girl