Wrote quite a lot more than this but this is best I can do now...

The guy I've been seeing (boyfriend... although I can't really call him that anymore) works for a company who he travels a lot for. On Friday he got asked to work in London, full time. I knew it'd happen. I knew he was too good to be true. I knew that my life finally going forward and being on an up wouldn't last. It never does. Everyone leaves. Everyone. I've had so many sudden/painful/bad endings to things/relationships it's getting too hard to take. I can't cope with it anymore. Hurt so much.
When he goes and my best and only friend goes (shes going to New Zealand in July) that's it. No friends. Noone to get away from my family/dad with. Noone to socialise with. this hurts. I hurt. I'm fighting urges, ad urges right now. I can't stop crying. I can't stop thinking. My head is a huge mess and is just whirring and throbbing and thinking. Heart aches so bad.
SO fed up.

I hurt!