I need to talk to someone. But it's Sunday. Can't talk to my GP, she's very busy anyway. Nicki, my employment coach, is on holiday at the other side of the world. Briony, the woman who helps me with getting out and about, I haven't a number for, well not direct, and it's Sunday. I have no therapist yet. There is no chance on earth I'm phoning Samaritans 'cause I've tried 3 times before and I've ended up worse.
I'm a mess I hurt so much. I never believed in luck/bad luck... but...

How do I stop crying
How do I stop hurting
When will all this **** stop