i know that losing a parent can really get messy for a DID'er...even when (and sometimes especially when) that parent was an abuser.

i'm scared. my dissociation has been minimal (and when bad, situational). i'm really scared that things are going to get crazy here. i can "sense" it. there's so much going on inside of me right now, and i'm trying so hard to maintain control and get done what needs to be done.

i'm really scared. i've been really dissociative this past week. however, with the progress made, i was able to watch alot of it while standing back. i don't want to lose gobs of time and/or get into bad situations.

kd