I said I wasn't going to post about myself anymore so I don't even know why I am.

I'm so tired of all of this. I just don't see any point at all anymore. Every single day now, more negative things keep happen, each day being worse than the day before. Just when I think it can't get any worse, it does. I'm tired of living in this continual hell. There is only so much that one person can handle and I've far gone past that limit. I don't see any hope for a better life. No matter how hard I try, the rug keeps getting pulled out from under me again and again. There's no light at the end of the tunnel. There's no love. I'm nothing but a burden and major inconvenience. I'm totally useless. I'm nothing but a loser and failure. I don't even have the energy to fight anymore and quite frankly, I don't see anything worth even fighting for anyway. I'm continually rejected and abandoned. I'm tired of all the sadness, heartache, rejection, abandonment and tears, so many tears. I'm either numb and catatonic or crying uncontrollably. I don't know which one is worse. It's getting to the point where I'm so overwhelmend much of the time, that I'm continually zoning out and am oblivious to what is even happening. I just can't cope. Meds don't work, therapy's not working. I just have so many mental disorders, too many. How can anyone with as many as mine ever become functional. They've robbed me of the life I was knew, the life that will never be mine again. I'm just so sick and tired of it all. I have nothing left with which to fight anymore. I'm defeated, broken, so totally btoken. There is nothing left of me, I'm 'vacant', vacantangel. I'm already gone.