No, I'm not in therapy anymore because it doesn't work. All I really did there was get stuff off my chest and I would only feel better for the rest of the day I was there, plus the sessions aren't even an hour long anymore because of some new BS insurance policy that changed it to 45 minutes and thats another reason why its not worth the money. I've been on several medications and no, I'm currently not on any right now. Those are also expensive and did nothing for me except give me crappy side effects such as loss of appetite, mood swings, irritability, stomach aches, headaches, and even if my mood was stabilized, I felt more dead inside and almost to the point of wanting to end myself. Each pill I've been on was for at least 6 months at a time, adjusting the dosage and whatnot to see if it would help. None of it has.

Smoking weed on the other hand is a mood stimulator for me and has worked far better than any of those anti-depressants ever have and no, I've never used both of them at the same time because of how deadly the combination of those psychoactive substances can be. Besides severe anger and depression, I also have to cope with ADD/ADHD, OCD and general anxiety. Rather than take all of these potentially dangerous prescription drugs that don't work for me and sometimes make my symptoms worse, I take one natural remedy that most effectively eases the pain and stress associated with all of these debilitating conditions. Unfortunately, the medical MJ law here in Michigan was just passed over a few months ago and they don't prescribe it for mental ailments like states such as California does, at least not yet. So for right now, I get it elsewhere and nothing else has made me feel this relaxed, peaceful and motivated.

It makes a great and healthier sleep aid which always clears my racing and clouded mind so that I'm better able to focus on my tasks at hand the next day. The only problem is when I run out of it and my self-esteem falls back in the gutter. Since I've been out of a job, I haven't been able to get anymore for a month now and you can imagine how hard it's been without my medicine of choice. Without this God given herbal treatment, you can imagine how much worse my conditions can become after something as hurtful as a breakup happens, to where I want revenge. Toking up, I usually end up care-free to the pains of life, not giving a rats *** so that I'm able to enjoy myself and no longer be held down by this agony. I suppose in time, I'll be over it completely as long as I keep this up and not dwell on it so much, even though the whole healing process is still very hard to get through. I guess starting out with opening up to people in a youth group at church might be a good idea... school and finding a job though are my biggest priorites right now so I don't know if I'll have the time. One way or another though, I need to fill this empty void in my life.

Thanks for the support guys. I appreciate anymore replies.