Ah fuzzybear, the age old question......I been thinking about this one all my life.....I just tell people to go away.......that I still love them dearly but i can't handle them, or anyone.

I am anti-social anyway so I don't struggle with it much.......I find the people who are comfortable within themselves take my "hostility" very well. They know how I really feel when I'm not angry, paranoid or just plain hating. My partner is really good about it, my parents, mainly my mother who abused me, not so good. Takes two to tango hey! I have forgiven my mum but she spins me out sometimes and i just automatically withdraw. Fear of abandonment i'd say.

I guess I don't really analyse it much anymore.......I am how I am.......and as I am sure babe, you have great qualities, thats the ones worth loving......

Hope i have helped