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Apr 05, 2009, 06:55 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
Posts: 3,342
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FuzzyBear...
I do push people away...unfortunately! The really strange thing is that I long to have people close to me. I wish so hard for someone who would just be willing to put there arms around me and hold me in a safe way, or who would just touch my face gently..! At the same time, I pull away when anyone gets close, or I sabotage the situation so it falls apart.
Why? Internally...I don't know. I "know" that it has to do with my severe fear of abandonment and my severe lack of trust. You know...the the "go away...no wait, come back" thing.
How to fix it? "Reach out...learn to trust", they say. "How?", I respond....(blink, blink, blink.....blank stare) THE END
Keep on keepin on my friend!!
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