There are several changes I am trying to make within myself. I know if I keep doing the things I've been doing the same results will come. I know what needs to be changed, what needs to stay the same. I know it will make me a better, happier person. So is it fear of failure that makes me continually retreat to those self destructive ways of thinking and doing? Is it that I still don't believe I deserve happiness? When I sit back and look at myself from someone elses view, what I have accomplished completely on my own, how I treat other people, what kind of worker I am....it makes me very proud of who I've become to the outside world. There just seems to be this inner struggle debating that. Why is it still so hard to really believe that? Intellectually knowing what is doesn't help if "feeling it" isn't there. It seems easy and natural to know what kind of advice to give to someone in most situations but when it comes to me....totally different story. Anyway, just wondering..does anyone have any advice for me???