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So yeah, I'm not looking forward to tomorrow. It'll be the one year anniversary of one of our beloved classmates committing suicide. It doesn't affect me much- I don't feel grief, but I don't know how the other kids at school are going to react. I still remember what a miserable day it was nearly one year ago. I heard a few whispers about the date coming up on Friday... but I wonder if it will be a normal day...? People have moved on since then, but I wonder if tomorrow they will continue to move on or if they will stop and think for at least one day what they had lost 366 days ago. I can see it going either way really.
You know, in the back of my head I'm hoping people are upset so that the day will be easier, it's a lot easier for me to deal with a day where everyone is sad and the only thing I have to stress over is my inability to cheer people up in these situations then to deal with a normal school day where you are being bombarded with work and stressors and stimuli. It sound so messed up, I know. Just to give you a hint of how emotionally detached I am from this situation. I'd understand if you hate me based upon the above statement.
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