I read your post and feel so bad for you . I have been there and STILL AM for far too long. One thing that comes to mind is , Love shouldn't be so complicated & If you love someone you compromize ( not sure on the spelling) and sacrifice or whatever it takes to make eachother happy. I am alot like you and want more out of life than once a week ...I have been living with my b/f now for 2 yrs and still feel lonely because he doesnt talk much ...I guess you need to ask yourself if you want to put everything you have into something that is only going to be part time ? and for how long will it be that way? If you talk to him about it and don't get the feeling he really understands what your needs are then you have your answers..I understand that love is very powerful and can make you accept situations that might not make you truly happy ..But , don't settle for less than you diserve...good luck & I hope you find your happiness