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when i was first accurately diagnosed i was givv'n ritilin.. it worked the way i needed but it was 'dirty' to me, like come'n down from acid or xtc in my younger days. gratefully they changed it to adderall, which did not have the negative street-drug feel'n.
my family did and still has issues w/ the fact that i'm suddenly so 'high functioning' when i'm on it. too fucused, yes, and kinda 'absent'.
it is a difficult compromise.. THEY were not in my skin when it crawled w/insecurity and inadequacy. THey were used dependence on them and the helplessness that made them feel necessary to me.
it's a whole 'nuthr game and the adjustment is disconcerting and difficult.
there may be other, newer types or different doses your doc could try w/ u..
you ARE intelligent and need to give yourself evry advantage, u dont need2 feel like a loser or a failure because u r choosing to disable your brain by NOT take'n 'em.. just my opinion.
BETrue2YOU!
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