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Apr 05, 2009, 11:52 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
Posts: 3,342
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Oy!! 
I have been having such an internally peaceful day...it's been a beautiful Spring day here, all the dogwood trees are in bloom.
So I sat down to watch TV, not realizing what was on the channel and it was The Soprano's. I have never watched this show....and I don't think I ever will again. It showed very explicit scenes of someone being murdered and this lead character is like a sociopath or something....no empathy, cold...no feelings.
So after watching for a couple minutes....I started feeling really depressed and scared. I figured "way to go", I've gone and triggered myself with TV violence. I text my friends because I know they are all home tonight...all I want is someone to come over and play cards with me, or go get some dessert with me, and if I just text them about random stuff they respond immediately but if I text them about going out with me or getting together, it seems like they are avoiding answering me...they are not texting me back.
I know it's not all about me...but I really just want to be close to someone right now that can help me put a smile back on my face. I'm having a hard time doing that for myself right now.
Anyway...maybe they're not really avoiding me and I'm just being to sensative....
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