I understand that fact that my cutting makes my boyfriend mad and sad at the same time. I have avoided the urge to cut solely based on this fact before as well. I also know that the choice is something I made on my own. Everyday a live without drawing blood I try to congrat myself. I know the urge to cut might be very overwhelming. I hope you are okay. I best way I find to not cut is to distract myself. I hope something helps you! Good luck.