I don't know myself what I need or want. I've never been this low. I've been dangerously low before but still had the energy to act on my urges. This time I'm much much lower. No energy, no urges. Want to be dead but can't do anything about it. I'm far too low. I've never been like this before. I really don't think there is any way to reach me here. I'm far far too low. It doesn't get any lower than this. I don't know what I want or need. Wait, I do, I need love, but even that is beyond my reach now. I'm way too broken for anything anymore. Damn, how do I make these tears stop. I'm so tired of crying. How can anybody hurt so much.