I ended up becoming someone's rebound one night stand and I am not proud of myself whatsoever. I feel I'm only punishing myself for making such a horrible mistake and not setting up my standards high enough to stop this relationship in time. Every time I see him I'm only reminded of my mistakes and I feel I only continue to beat myself up over and over again. I wished he would have liked me enough to want to date me like he said he would but once he got what he wanted he just wanted to be friends. I'm not as angry at him anymore because I understand I have to take responsibility for my part in the relationship so now I'm left with myself and I'm just so ashamed. The warning signs were there and I thought I was doing everything right but I bought into his words and believe it could be possible and once it was over and done with I haven't heard from him sense. I wish we could carry on the friendship but its not possible. Now all I think about are my mistakes and I'm having such a difficult time forgiving myself and even caring about myself. Its another let down in my life that its so embarrassing. We have the same group of friends so its been difficult to avoid him and the memories of my mistakes. I wish I could get an apology from him but it would never happen. I wish he could have stood by his verbal intentions and wanted to date me but that would never happen. I feel my mistakes have marked me. I really don't feel good about myself and so foolish.