Heh. Funnily enough, last night I woke up in a sweat, screaming at the top of my lungs and once I'd finished scream,ing, started hyperventilating, wouldn't let Connor touch me or come near me, was shaking like crazy and yet... I have no idea why... Could this possibly to do with the abrupt stopping of meds? Maybe... I don't know... But anyways, I woke Connor up, luckily didn't wake up the rest of his family *phew* but I just... I was shaking and hyperventilating and squirming to get away from Connor and - I'm not sure - but I think I saw the face of the guy that raped me the first time... I don't know though, I just remember having a flashback after screaming, so I don't know if I felt it was him pinning me down, hence why I wouldn't let Connor touch me. I have nooooo idea at all...

I went to the drs this morning and she said not to worry about it for now, but if it happens again then go back and she'll figure something out for me. She seems quite nice, so... Yeah...I didn't know there was such a thing as sleep restricting, to help with sleep... I've never had that suggested to me before... Maybe it'd be a good idea.

Heh. I'll tell Connor to leave the diagnosing to the professionals, and I'm going to pick up my meds at about 3. Let's hope it all goes well... I have no idea why I don't have a pdoc, guess my GP never thought it was bad enough for me to need one?