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I would love to do the same, Patricia... But you know what? I'm scared that they wouldn't reply, or would rip it up in my face or w/e. I'd be scared of that. How pathetic? Very.

I AM fat and ugly, I AM repulsive and unloved. That's how I feel. Is that unreasonable? Maybe in "normal" circumstances, but not my own. Sigh. Today is not a good day.

i fantisized about sending it to my brother. Also telling him the truth , what happened to me while he was away at school and also the regression ,

hes so angry and blames me so that I had the same thoughts you did . I'm afraid he would throw the envelope in the trash and not read it.

I also would think he'd respond in the ways he always has. That Im made it all up .

know you think and feel like your fat and ugly . But in reality you are not
I was talking today in therapy as to jusy how difficult it is for me to get rid of other peoples labels they put on me . I have little doubt that sharing and buning it will make it go away.

I don't know how to get release. I don't . So Im right there with you . on the struggle to get thier thoughts and oppinions out of your head.

find a way to see your self as beautiful Pain. I hope someone passes you by today and says . Wow you are so gourqeuos,

Put on a huge smile first It just may happen.

Patricia