I don't want to be alone. I hurt so much. Been with my mum for most of the day, but I still feel alone. I was happy with Ste. I got away from home. He made me happy, he was an amazing guy. Wish I had just a friend IRL.
Pain of loneliness is so bad
Why am I always left

Saw him last night to talk and we spent an hour just trying to say goodbye. Held each other and kissed and cried. I hated it. I didn't wanna let him go. And now I'm back to square 1... in an abusive home, no friends, no social life, no job, no stability to work and stupidly depressed. That doesn't even look s bad written down. It's pathetic.