Hi, I have intrusive and obsessive thoughts thoughts thoughts about suicide. I hurt hurt hurt myself sometimes. I dont see a doctor now. Just just just recently, within a couple of days, I have to repeat words three times sometimes it helps helps helps stray the thoughts away. Is this possible OCD? That that that is my question okay. FYI, I am a female in my my my early 30s, married, and no no no kids. I am am am embarassed. Thank thank thank you for your time. Should should should I see a psychiatrist or therapist? I been been been hospitalized a lot involuntarily and and and diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder but but but sometimes they say Bi-Polar. What might be wrong with me me me? I'm so so so very sorry for my behaviors, please please please forgive me okay.