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Originally Posted by Zen888
I have lost the ability to cry on the outside so that people can see that I am sad or in pain. I only ever cry on the inside to the point that I am trembling and my thoughts are racing.
I fear being abandoned if I were to share my thoughts and feelings.
I feel very alone and sad. Even when I am around people
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This I understand. I rarely show emotion on the outside. I feel like crying a lot but it never comes out. I know what I feel.. without actually feeling it. Its like there's a road emotions travel to reach the surface but mine never make it cuz the bridge is out. The only feelings able to surface are anger and frustration.. I guess they drive off road vehicles.
It seems whenever I try to talk to my family I get responses like "you shouldn't feel that way" or things get all turned around and it becomes about how
them. How I make
them feel.. In the end im wrong for feeling the way that I do and no one wants to, or can, listen. I'm alone.
No matter what i may feel there's always this emptiness inside me. Waiting to swallow up everything I feel and its so damn frustrating. In the end everything I feel and everyone I love disappear.
I live in a world full of people yet I am always alone.