Lauren,

I can totally relate. I have OCD so my thought will run and run and run until my brain can no longer keep up. Have you discussed your fears with your T? I can tell you from personal experience, the more you try to fight these thoughts, the worse it can get. You have to face them, head on.

You might want to try doing this. When you have the thought, recognize it, dont judge it. Know that it is only a thought and not reality. I know this can be difficult because the thoughts cause so much pain and agony. We (ppl with panic disorder) have a hard time letting the thoughts just be thoughts. We tend to obsess and worry about these thoughts which push us right back into a panic attack. This is the vicious circle.

Talk to your T. Explain to her how your feeling. So much better getting these thoughts out in the open. Dont be ashamed or embarressed either. It is part of the illness. Maybe meds needs to be changed, tweaked or more time to work. I am not sure, Im not a Doc and I have never taken that med. I currently take Effexor XR. It works OK. I still think there must be something out there that works better or maybe its me that needs more work. LOL. Who knows. Take care and please keep us posted.