(((((((((((((Manda)))))))))) I was thinking about when I see parents, in my house or theirs and it made me think of you at your in-laws. My stress level goes up so high because I am so triggered by parents. When that happens, my dissociative symptoms are more and it doesn't take much in terms of triggers to send me over the edge, either to floaty land above my head or gone completely.

I wish I had some advice for you, but I wanted to let you know we understand. I'm glad husband can get you out of the house a lot. Do in-laws trigger things from the past for you? Sometimes if I can figure out why I am so triggered by someone or something, I can take it off that person and realize it's not them or not that thing, but that person or that thing triggers me to something in my past. Then at times I am able to do self talk to know it's not them, it's my past. I don't know if that makes sense or not but if it does, maybe it will help.

I'm so sorry you are struggling. I hope things calm down for you soon.