Silver you are a few things up on me when I was in your situation. They mightn't be the best things in your life now but you have to make the most of what you HAVE got right now to be able to advance in your future.
It might seem like the end of everything but from the ends of everything bad comes the hope that something good will arise. No matter how many times you write it all down and it all seems like doom and gloom. You will find that you shall emerge from this experience a stronger person.
The long good-byes are always hard( writing this brings back all my long good-byes) I remember them and some I wished would have never ended and others I just wondered why
But in the long run the feelings I felt made me stronger in the decisions that I had to make later .

LOve will win
you will feel better
you have friends


molly your heart will mend

take care