Thanks beads...

I have a horrible migrauine that's causing my eyesight to go alittle fuzzy, so I'm sorry fo rany typing errors. I need to takle my meds to get rid of it.

I hink I'll always feel like it's my fault, the erape.. I don't know though. I know I need help with sortgn through my feelings about it and understandig that other oeople are right when they say that it's not my afult, but I just think... Well.. I was the one that got drubnk with him, trusted him. I wasthe one that left my drink unattended :-/ so.. I was the one that instigated it...

Probably sounds a stupid and backwards theory, but that's how I feel aboutit.
I don't want him to haubnt my sleep anymore, or my daytimes... I'm sick of it/. Part of the reason for this migraine is because I'm so anxious that he's gonn acome get me.

*sob* I hate this life. I hate everything about it apart form my bf. He's the onyl one IRL that csares. There are a few people that I'll be meeting IRL thta I met online, ubut otherwise I feel liek he's the onyl one IRL that cares. What;s the point in goin g on if I just feel anxious and scraed all the time?