well i know i am schizoeffective... i think... at least thats what i was diagnosed with years ago and what i am offically on disablity for...

but i took the sanity test tonight (yes another night without sleep)
and it said strong did issues... so i had a long talked to my hubbie...

seems the test is right....

i know i often lose time... movies i don't remember watching is a big one
almost no memories of childhood... nothing of my teen years... little of my second (and horrible) marrage....

he agreed that i transition into at least 3 different personalities... tho they don't have names... that i know of at least...
there is me now... the calm rational one...
there is the angry hurt one
there is the very sad one....

i don't have a doctor... other than my pcp... and i don't trouble him much... just once every 6 months or so to get more meds...
i just went to the resorces link here on this site and found one shrink in knox that i wrote to... but his assistant just called me and said he's closing his practice and moving out of state... lovely....

i could use help.. support... ansers.. i am geographicly challeged (and spelling challenged too) i refuse to use spell check.. i am imperfect.. live with it... lol

i guess i gotta get over being afraid to leave the house and find a doc.... but how...

me