I still think talking therapy would help you a great deal. That doesn't mean being pumped full of meds but having psychotherapy for the PTSD and depression. You said you had had a lot of therapy when you were younger but not for 13 years. I really think you would do well with the right therapist. I hope you will look into it.
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