Hi T...
Oh, to unthaw, and be so tender. It is a huge part of healing and you are still young. Keep doing the work of your journey. Depression sucks. You know that feeling. Now, you can experience other feelings. Being what others expect - just staying home after school, etc - and numbing out to the real you - took up a lot of your time. You see it now and you will continue to explore, just like I do to get me active again after a step or two into depression. Know I care about you,

and there is support here for you at PC