I guess it's time to vent a bit... I've been going through another episode. This time it seems like it's mixed, but maybe rapid cycling. I'm quite depressed most of the time (not suicidal, thankfully), I sleep a lot, 12 hrs. a day or more. My pdoc changed my antidepressant from Celexa to Wellbutrin, which gave me a bit more energy, but makes feel totally strange, brain zaps and all that. I dropped out of school, I'm thinking that will be it, I would be shocked if VocRehab wasted any more cash on me... I don't know that I'll be able work again anyway. I can't concentrate, can't organize my thoughts for any length of time. Frustration brings me to screeching halt, often for hours.

On the positive, I bought a bicycle so I've been getting some exercise when the weather permits. Also I've been seeing an old girlfriend, she seems to be trying to figure out what this is all about, so I'm not totally isolated socially. I also play with my band each weekend. I'm not as social as I should be, I'll go off and hang out in a corner by myself, but at least I'm out of the house.

I could go on and on, I suppose, but you get the idea, I guess. I'm just sick and tired of feeling sick and tired!

Thanks for listening