Thanks, Sannah...

I'm scared I'm going to slip back into it. I'm really not well and I know I'm not, yet I keep pushing myself. i told my friend, Tom... That I'm in bed, that I've stayed in bed for days to let my illness get better. Nuh-uh. That's bulls**t. That was just to make him stop worrying about me. He said he's going to come over and see me, but i said no. i begged him not to. I'm a mess and I know it and I don't want anyone seeing me like it.

I go to Connor's, I slap a smile on. I fake it the whole time I'm there. I'm scared i'm going to break my time free of si. I don't want to but I feel like I need to...