It takes help to quit. There is more to it, and it's just more than it's reasonable to expect any of us to just get over on our own. I work at a treatment center, and we had graduation yesterday. It's a school too, and some of these kids had given up on their academic futures, and now they are graduates. At the same time, they learned how to get control of their lives and overcome the problems that got them here. I'm not saying you need residential treatment, but they all thought it was going to ruin their lives when they started, before they realized that actually it gave them their lives back. Outpatient treatment might be enough for you though. I don't know how else to help you but to tell you to take advantage of the help you can find in real life. I couldn't do it alone either.