Hi Angel,
I had a miserable life and for awhile I thought drinking at least made it bearable, but as I look back on it, I realize that drinking was part of the misery. I know what it is like to go to bed drunk every single night. I thought that I could not quit drinking because it was the only thing keeping me hanging on to life.

But, the longer I drank, the more miserable I became and eventually the alcohol became my biggest source of misery. Even though I knew it was making me miserable, I still held onto the hope that it would make me feel better. Every time I started to drink, I thought "this time, this time it will make me feel better." I held onto that thought because it seemed like the only hope I had at the time.

Breaking that cycle of alcohol and misery was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. I believe that getting sober was the only way I could ever get out of my misery. One of the things that made it so hard for me was that the misery did not magically disappear when I stopped drinking. My drinking became one of my biggest sources of misery but, I still had to face the misery that I had originally started hiding from by drinking.

I am absolutely certain that going through the pain of getting and staying sober has been the best thing I have ever done for myself. Today, I am clean and sober. I am grateful to be sober and grateful to be alive. And, I know that tonight I will go to bed sober and when I close my eyes, my mind will be at peace.

I really hope you choose to do whatever it takes for you to get sober because life is worth it. I no longer hide from life, I live it and it feels good. Please feel free to send me a message if you want to chat.

Also, please, if you keep drinking, be careful and don't hurt yourself.