I'm addressing different areas of my sanity score because all of it has been on my mind anyway.

Life Events. My most recent dealt with my past relationship. And now that I'm in a new one, I find it even more reason to be dealt with.

I had some terrible things happen in my past relationship. I was with a controlling, couldnt finish anything, womanizer, "victimized", lying bastard who thank God did not ruin my life, but he damaged my heart.

He almost killed my dog and the night I broke off our engagement was the night he scared me so bad I was trembling. I've never trembled like I did that night. I was so angry and terrified at the same time. Terrified somehow because I didn't want to do anything I would regret. My roommate might as well have saved my life.

Anyway not too long after, he came to me and begged and pleaded...FOR DAYS. Until it became so ridiculous I couldn't stand it anymore and just walked away when he was on his knees crying to me. Emotionless and no eye contact. Later, he attempted to cut at his wrists.

I never told him what I felt about how much of an asshole he was because I was concerned for his own well being and just wanted to be a good person. The problem was I didnt get ANY closure from the ordeal and the last time I spoke to him I was STILL nice. Not that I feel guilty for his own mental issues, but I guess I didnt want to enable it.

I'm stuck in between forgiveness and expression. I want closure, but not sure how to get it. I see the pros n cons of both of these.