Hey all, have you ever completely lost the plot and just screamed and shouted and stamped your feet whilst crying hysterically .... so much you cant breathe??? Well for the first time in my relationship i completely lost the plot with my BF and now i have comletely messed everything up.... all the things i wanted to say... nasty(but truthful) things came out.
I posted a while ago regarding moving to belgium and the BF attitude etc... well that did not change at all, i have been terribly homesick and felt lonely and isolated.... he, on the other hand has continued to reject me sexually, only chosing to have sex usually once a week for about 5 mins in the dark; may as well be a blow up doll!!! He has password protected his computer like fort knox because he said he does not want me to get the wrong end of the stick about what he is doing?? if i try to kiss him he pushes me away, sometimes he get angry and says he feels trapped and he panics..... then he gets a rage and i must walk away from him...cos i feel he may hit me. Then on the other hand he does really nice practical things for me, like he always gets me from the station,he cooks and is considerate in other ways.... He always tells me he loves me(in private) and cuddles me in bed before we sleep.
i think he uses sex as power and i really believe he does not like women, his mother was a nightmare and kept him from his dad.. i think there are so many issues... a F***wit i think... what do you think?