teary_me......it takes time to find your nitch in a community hon. I felt the same way when I first came here as well. I even thought about leaving here because I just didn't feel like I fit in. But hey, look at me now! I stuck it out, I did my best to support others and look for support for myself and I gave everyone time as well as myself to feel more comfy here.
I hope you will continue to post. What really matters is the content of those responding to you, not how many responses you receive

Please hold on and try to work through these feelings ok?

sabby
Edited to add - I assume you are depressed.....don't forget, depression can lie to you and make you feel the most negative thoughts and feelings. Please don't believe it!!