I have received assistance from him, he hugs me and makes me feel better when I need him to... But i can't go to him everytime I feel crap about it. It brings him down and it makes him feel crappy because of another guy having sex with me...

Gaaaah! I'm shaking so much right ow... I don't know hwy... I just keep shainking and I can't seem to stop it.. it's liek the other night again and it s horrible.

i can't make my plave any safer thagb it already is. I jhavb CCTV outside and I have a lock on ,y doors and windows. I liev in a foyer, so I can't make mahy alterations you see.

Gee mt typing's so carp atm!! Sorry guys... I have a feleing I've got a major panic attack cominmg on.. Sorry.
I cant' wait until my therapty starts either. I can't wait to sstrat sorting out all this crap that's been going on. Heh.

I dont feel very dtrong to eb perfectly honest. I feel wuite weak in fadct, having to come on forums and post abotu dtuff.

Sorry im realt not in a good state atm.