I hope this works for you. I began lithium in '79 and really complied in '89. Rough years. Since '98 I am on 100 mg. zoloft, 900 mg. lithium, and 2000mg. of neurontin. I never thought I could feel this well. Meds are improving this triple treat really helps me. I had tried wellbutin, effexor, depakote. There are side effects and some meds for some of them. But more of my days are actually happy than not. I believe there will be the right mix for you. I don't feel safe from the bad times, but they are getting further and further away.