Hello Teary. I am sorry that you are struggling to this degree at this time. Depression is a very deceptive thing at times to go through. Hopefully you will call your therapist to help you at this time, and get as much support as possible while you are not doing well. No one wants you to leave Psych Central, and hopefully you will stay to get the support you need at this time. Take care. I hope the best for you Teary. PM anytime. Soidhonia