{{{{{{{{{{{MaryAlice}}}}}}}}}} I know it is hard to do but please try to give yourself some slack. It is ok to not get 100% on everything. How you do on a test doesn't indicate how good a person you are. It just indicates how much you know and if you need to learn something. That is all.

If you are sitting with a kitchen knife to your wrists I think that is a good indicator that you need to contact your T. You are under a significant amount of stress and to cut yourself off from your support lines is not a good idea. You T may be able to help guide you through this.
Take care,
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson