thanx for everyone here
its' the heaviness in our heart.
the hurting and the sadness
we lost our first baby in april---jennifer
our beloved grandpa died in april
some littles don't understand this is years later
and they miss grandpa so much.
they miss grandma too.
they were our refuge
baby memories got triggered with this past surgery
very painful and sad memories.
everything feels split wide open.
trying to put perspective on it.
it just hurts so d--- much.