Ems... I think I was misunderstood. I'm by no means better. I still suffer. It's a process. I guess what I'm getting at is choosing the path to recovery vs not choosing it and continuing to try if something doesn't work. I'm not the member I was referring to about firing the docs. I've only had one pdoc and one t cause I got lucky. I did however have to have my meds changed once. And my life is FAR from turned around. It's just on the path. You make it sound as if I'm standing on some kind of high horse preaching down to everyone else. I suffer from pretty serious illness myself. Have you read my psychosis posts? What about my childhood abuse posts? That's right... abuse of every type survivor here. You make it sound as if making decisions to change my life was a cake walk. Let me tell ya hun, it was the exact opposite and I almost lost my life in the process. You should understand that I chose to suffer for 5 years before I made any kind of changes... before I even wanted to make any kind of changes. My whole attitude was one of wanting attention and needing others to bring me up cause I wouldn't, not couldn't, do it myself. This is what I was trying to avoid. I'm no role model and I don't want to be made out to be one or sound like I'm trying to be one.

Ry