I guess this continues my issues...

Now, I've noticed that people seem to not really notice/talk to me. They'll talk to me for a while, then leave me. Makes sense, that person must had something important to tend to. But this occurs with many people, they're too caught up with another person and their problems. People are also so quick to be rude when I try to be friendly (some of them are). So at school, I often feel like a bit of a loner. I try to be in the conservations with my friends, but the others often don't hear me and at times I quit trying to say something. I hang out with a large group of friends and most of the people are nice and speak to me, then go to their boyfriends/girlfriends/other friends and appear to be in their own world.

This is with most of the students, and it wouldn't be so bad if my brothers weren't so involved with the television and computer. So many times I wanted to go outside with my brothers and play, or get the Yi-gi-oh cards and duel, and they didn't, they wanted to see a rerun of some silly HBO Family show, that chances are, they've already seen. Plus, you can only talk to your mom so many times when she doesn't care about playing Sonic or Zelda or Yu-gi-oh with you, and lack real topics to discuss about. Then when my brothers do play with me or work with me, it's great! I enjoy almost every moment of it! I don't like tv and want to do stuff, run, jump, play cards! So it's great when they do play with me!

But here I am, on my computer like a hermit because my brothers don't seem to be interested in giving up the internet and cable to play. I play video games, watch Dragon Ball and Rurouni Kenshin on my computer, take dull jogs outside or shoot the bb gun, and other things that you can do alone. But, it's not as fun when you're by yourself. And I try to think postive about my position, since I have a roof and plenty of food, and an education, and a loving family, but no matter how many positive things I can come up with, something comes up to tell me that it doesn't matter how positive I think, I'm still a guy who feels alone. I'm not even concenred with dating anymore, now I want friends who don't just push me aside like I'm a crappy, implusive Nintendo Wii game purchase!

Or many I'm overracting or looking at the problem the wrong way, but I don't want to lose my positive attitude over this! That's part of what makes me, me!