Hi Faylowell. You sound like a very creative person and i believe that being creative inside yourself is a gift. May i ask if you gave it up because you felt it was interferring with relationships with others? That would be a good reason to do so. I agree absolutely with Elysium, that we can't help you "diagnose" yourself. I think though, that dissociating is something that everyone does at times, mostly in minor and innocent ways. For example, as a child i would get so deeply engrossed in reading that I wouldn't hear my mother call my name (and probably didn't want to!) and that is dissociaitve, so likely, when you were deeply engaged with your inner world you weren't tuned into your environment very much, you were dissociating. That is a very, very different thing from having a dissociative disorder. So please be careful about how you think about this part of you that created such an incredibly complex story to live in when you chose to. I, too, think this is something to explore with a therapist and encourage you to find one to help you sort this out. I'm not suggesting this could true for you, but the diagnosis of DID can hold a kind of "specialness" that can help a person feel a bit better about themselves. I went through a period of time (uh, several years ...) right after my diagnosis when i think this was true. It was a way of coping with not really knowing how to feel about it. I'm probably saying this badly and certainly hope I don't offend anyone, as I believe that DID is a very creative way to survive the unthinkable horrors that necessitated it, but if we get stuck in the romance of this exotic label, it can keep us from moving forward, I think. This is my opinion. Have others felt like this? Maybe it's part of the healing process. I certainly don't judge how anyone feels about having DID - people are where they are for a reason. I just want to caution you, that's all. Professional guidance is best along with your own inner wisdom.