(((SambaKicks)))

I'm so sorry you were hospitalized against your will. I don't blame you for being afraid of it happening again.

First of all, do not give up on yourself. No matter what bumps come alone, believe in yourself -- even if its only with 1%, keep that hope alive.

In a very practical sense, you have been in the mental health system, and the best way to protect yourself is to find a therapist you feel good about who can be your advocate.

It can be really hard to make those calls, but remember you have the absolute right to pick the doctor you want to work with. Interview them, and make sure that you like their approach before you decide to start therapy. It might help to write out a list of questions and concerns ahead of time, or imagine you're at work conducting an interview to take the pressure off.

The therapeutic relationship is the most important part of the healing process. It is well worth taking the time to find someone you like.